Random Blathers, Strength

Little things to never forget

“Don’t just see me, but get to know me. Understand me. Teach me. Don’t just look at me, but dive deeper. Learn about me. Value who I truly am.”

“Sometimes people think they know you. They know a few facts about you, and they piece you together in a way that makes sense to them. And if you don’t know yourself very well, you might even believe that they are right. But the truth is, that isn’t you. That isn’t you at all.” —Leila Sales

“Here’s to the ones who have nothing figured out in their lives currently, the ones who wake up each day with no desire to ever leave their beds, the ones who fake smiles and wear a mask each day just so they wouldn’t hurt anyone around them, here’s to the ones who sleep with tears in their eyes and pain in their hearts, the ones who stay inside for days trying to pull themselves together as if they’re a puzzle missing all its pieces, here’s to the ones who find themselves spacing out thinking about how lonely they feel deeply in their bones even when they’re surrounded by all their loved ones, here’s to the ones who are afraid of their own thoughts and own beings, the ones who have to fight every damn day … Dive deeper

About me, Idealism, Random Blathers

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// bedtime story //
Zi de zi mă retrag din ce în ce mai mult în lumea pe care am construit-o din vise grămadă. Îmi place să cred că trăiesc într-o lume mai bună decât este ea, de fapt. Că toți copiii cred în povești, că primăvara e plin de flori, că iubirea nu costă nimic. De câte ori deschid ochii, de-atâtea ori trec printe mulțimi de oameni cu nasul în telefon, mergând triști spre locul de muncă sau spre școală. Nervoși că au pierdut autobuzul sau că s-a pus roșu înainte ca lor să le scape piciorul pe accelerație. Înfășurați de reclame politice pe bannere inutile, ei au castile în urechi, muzica la maxim, cafeaua într-o mână și țigara în cealală.
Este un peisaj trist și sfâșietor cu care mă identific – și nu rareori. Mi-ar plăcea să mă pot desprinde de lumea în care mă trezesc de luni până sâmbătă (duminica visăm,-ez), să merg la birou liniștită și în drumul meu să-mi iau un buchet de flori care să înfrumusețeze geamurile corporațiilor, să uit că am telefon. Să zâmbesc mai des oamenilor, fără motiv, să ajut pe cine pot, cu ce pot. Să-mi amintesc de cei de acasă, de unde am plecat. Oamenilor! Ce este cu noi? Chiar nu mai avem 10 minute pe zi să iubim, să … Dive deeper

Random Blathers, time&mind management

r i s k s

We forgot what stomach pain feels like, caused by hours of laughter, so we’re so shocked when it happens. We forgot what muscle pain is, outside the gym. We refuse to get out of our routines, we refuse to quit one hour of sleep for one hour of fun. We’re young and dying. We should be young and happy. And when sparks of happiness appear, we don’t know how to react to it, we get scared and blame the high. We go out against our mood, thinking it is going to be for the better, because we see ourselves so “antisocial”, and then we blame ourselves for actually enjoying another man’s presence. We light up a cigarette after a blunt, get home late and pour a shot so we can go to sleep, even if it’s against all our rules we guide our lives after.  Because if nobody sees it, it never happened. We forgot to smile back at strangers. We forgot that they’re not as unknown as we think.

So now that we agreed that, when alone, we let ourselves enjoy things we would otherwise feel guilty about, how does that impact us and why aren’t we brave enough to live life, exactly as it is served to us?

Who cares if someone sees you? Why hide? Why are … Dive deeper