Mental Health, Random Blathers

THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME!

My beliefs are strongly intertwined with my synapses and always have been – and I have read all I could ever find about them. This is not about religion, race, sexual orientation, it’s not about my state of mind. This is for the other selves I could have been but chose not to become because I feel the need of explaining myself in front of my harshest judge – my conscience, my senses of right or wrong and today I chose the right path of rehabilitating my soul and thus I feel like telling the truth and moving on.

I have chosen to become who I am based on my past, which I am not going to offer many details about but rather do an introspection and note down the conclusions.

I have chosen to believe in who I am because my gut never, but absolutely never lied to me. I have had anxiety all my life as a symptom of borderline personality disorder and you would say a borderline mind cannot do justice to itself but I have come to the conclusion that it is the only rehab I have left.

I have chosen to end interpersonal relationship because of the toxicity they were veiled in, and it wasn’t always them. It was me and my needy soul, not … Dive deeper

Mental Health

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Dacă erați curioși, măcar acum, în septembrie (National Suicide Prevention Month) cum arată depresia dimineața, la prânz și seara, un simptom al multor boli psihice, de multe ori trecute cu vederea sau diagnosticate prost de medici dornici să prescrie încă o rețetă colorată, uită-te la poza de mai jos și spune-mi de ce suferă fata asta.

Lui Vlad Stroescu îi mulțumesc pentru multe, zilnic, că mă pune deseori pe gânduri, chiar dacă nu stie.

Poate ar trebui să mai lăsăm dracului răutatea și veninul cu care scuipă fiecare cuvânt la 7 dimineața în trafic și să punem cantitatea dorită de zahăr în cafea. Fiecare zi pe rând. Fiecare oră pe rând. Fiecare om pe rând.

Faptul că machiajul meu este impecabil dimineața și am cămașa călcată la dungă nu înseamnă că am avut chef să mă dau cu rimel să arăt ok la muncă. E efort, infim pentru mulți, extrem de obositor pentru mine. Faptul că am unghiile făcute și tenișii curați nu spune nimic despre mine. Cu unghiile alea mi-am rupt pielea de pe oase.

Uităm că trăim printre oameni care o duc poate puțin mai rău decât noi. Fiecare cu ale lui. Just respect it. And ask for help.

Să nu vă temeți să cereți ajutor. Chiar și anonim, mie, pe blog, sau bunicilor voștri, sau unui străin … Dive deeper

Education, Mental Health

About the world that passes me by

“Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence… But if you come at just any time, I shall never know at what hour my heart is to be ready to greet you. Just that, said the fox. To me, you are still nothing more than a little boy who is just like a hundred thousand other little boys. And I have no need of you. And you, on your part, have no need of me. To you I am nothing more than a fox like a hundred thousand other foxes. But if you tame me, then we shall need each other. To me, you will be unique in all the world. To you, I shall be unique in all the world….You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.” – Antoine de Saint-Exupéry,The Little Prince

Years ago, after finishing my sophomore year of highschool, she left. Left after I wiped the floors with her dignity. She left and he was proud of me. He was proud that I was finally able to overcome her. I sent her away, made her take the first … Dive deeper