Random Blathers

Virtues

Is patience a virtue, though? Faith, hope, charity, fortitude, justice, prudence and temperance are all considered the Seven Heavenly Virtues. So you can be strong, empathic and careful and you’d be virtuous, but I think patience may kill every spark in you. Yes, usually hurrying stuff is not a wise thing to do if not imperiously necessary, but how do you handle the primary instinct that burns through your veins? May it be work related or something personal, haven’t you ever pushed it a little bit and succeed? But haven’t you ever push it a bit and disastrously fail? When and how do you know if you should be patient? Wait for friday to pass and a new weekend to come and here’s how years will pass so fast; but wait for someone, wait for the paycheck, wait for anything good that would give your heart a glimpse of satisfaction and you’ll feel like you’ve been waiting forever. So what if you don’t want to waste your time waiting? What if you want to actually feel like living – or at least, trying to get out of that routine? Because you’ll go back knowing your routine is good, it got you out of so much trouble. Spared you the morning hurry, because you always wake up early enough to drink … Dive deeper

Idealism

Mirrors

Deseori mă surprind scriind despre lucruri pe care aș fi vrut să le aud de la alții în anumite momente. La fel de des mă surprind uitându-ma în oglindă printr-un chip străin mie. Caut liniște. Din camera cealaltă se aud țipete. De afară se aude muzică. Îmi pun căștile și fac abstracție de ce mă înconjoară. Plutesc. Scriu sau mă uit pe tavan. Ascult un podcast sau o carte audio în loc de muzică, deși Spotify e sfânt. Dacă e seară, desfac o sticlă de vin nemțesc și aprind o țigară. Dacă e frig, fumez din țigara electronică. Vezi tu, mă mulez foarte usor unor împrejurimi nu neapărat confortabile mie. Sunt un om dependent de ceva ce urăște – schimbarea. În rău sau în bine, o urăsc la fel de tare, deși sunt conștientă că fără ea nu există vreun fel de evoluție. De fiecare dată când am suportat consecințele schimbării lucrurilor din jurul meu, a trebuit să suport și propria-mi schimbare. E greu să înveți așa des să trăiești cu alt om cu care nu te mai identifici. E ca și când ai sări din relație în relație, toate la intensități inimaginabile sanctuarului tău sfânt și cald, unde nimic rău nu se poate întâmpla. Doar că tu nu știi că e toxic – încă. Te obișnuiești cu ele și … Dive deeper

Random Blathers, Strength

Little things to never forget

“Don’t just see me, but get to know me. Understand me. Teach me. Don’t just look at me, but dive deeper. Learn about me. Value who I truly am.”

“Sometimes people think they know you. They know a few facts about you, and they piece you together in a way that makes sense to them. And if you don’t know yourself very well, you might even believe that they are right. But the truth is, that isn’t you. That isn’t you at all.” —Leila Sales

“Here’s to the ones who have nothing figured out in their lives currently, the ones who wake up each day with no desire to ever leave their beds, the ones who fake smiles and wear a mask each day just so they wouldn’t hurt anyone around them, here’s to the ones who sleep with tears in their eyes and pain in their hearts, the ones who stay inside for days trying to pull themselves together as if they’re a puzzle missing all its pieces, here’s to the ones who find themselves spacing out thinking about how lonely they feel deeply in their bones even when they’re surrounded by all their loved ones, here’s to the ones who are afraid of their own thoughts and own beings, the ones who have to fight every damn day … Dive deeper